Congratulations you’re experiencing burnout and/or depression!
You can look forward to such exciting prospects as society telling you to just “feel better” and gaslighting yourself into thinking you’re just lazy!
But wait there’s more! If you act right now you can also experience self loathing for not being you’re best self for your loved ones!
In all seriousness help is available. Take time to reconnect with yourself and seek out resources. Lean on your friends when you need to. Healing is a process and it doesn’t happen all at once.
Solar and wind will always need batteries for times of low output, until we get more resilient and larger capacity batteries we will need a backbone to support the electricity grid to avoid having to overbuild battery capacity.
As of right now natural gas is that backbone but that could change and very well be nuclear energy until we figure out something like mass produced solid state batteries.